This is absurd. Has it been two weeks since I blogged? That time has been a blur. A BLUR!! It was when I was in LA that I posted right? Good grief. We (the company) just have a LOT going on internally, behind the scenes.....and as I have mentioned in some of my last posts and videos-- I kind of felt myself giving in to the weight of all this....all this going on, all this responsibility and commitment...sometimes I find myself longing for the simplicity of my life years ago.....when I had a corporate job where I worked for someone else. I did my thing, I answered to one person ( a great boss) and I had free time. I did things like go to movies or go out with friends or go on dates. And now soe of those simple things seem like another WORLD. I miss getting up on Saturday morning and knowing that I could do my cleaning routine where I cleaned my house from 7am to 11am then I'd workout and go DO something during the day. Something fun. NOT to whine that my life is so terrible!!! NO but really until you have run your own business and furthermore, run your own business that has exploded and placed so much demand on you that you cannot even sleep at night because your brain never stops working.....it's hard to relate to what it's like.
Suffice it to say, I am grateful every day but I often miss the simplicity of the life I used to lead. I used to wonder what they meant by that saying "it's lonely at the top" and now I know. It's disappointing to learn the lessons I've had to learn about loyalty and selfishness in people. I'll say this, the past 2 years have taught me some GARGANTUAN life lessons and I aim to keep learning. I might get down but I won't stay down. I'm learning to be a bit easier on myself when I can. Like hey- I haven't blogged in 2 weeks. That's not because I'm sitting around watching TV it's because I barely have 30 minutes free to watch a TV show let alone write my blog. Sigh. i am hoping that some of the changes we are implementing-- will allow me to delegate and outsource more so I can be more effective in everything I do and not lapse into a coma while I am doing it. LOL.
This is the vlog I shot earlier this week when I was feeling really the weight of the world. see what I mean?
Oh did I mention Aunt Flo arrived yesterday? Yea. Welcome to the jungle of bad moods in my house. NOT for long. I'm changing my state. Even though I have to keep doing it every 5 minutes....OY.
Amen on that one. And -- now this week, it's time to make it count. I had a killer workout yesterday when I was in a bad bad mood, and I am sore. I love DOMS. It made me realize how much I've missed them. It's time to bring them back. ;-)
I am also going to get my ankle checked out this week-- the Achilles is killing me very suddenly- no idea if some of my recent hilly bumpy outside runs like jacked my foot or something but I'm a bit worried. My massage guy even said my right Achilles is all swollen etc. Not pleasing-- have any of you dealt with this??