Happy Sunday people! The picture above is actually from yesterday right before my morning HIIT workout where...I WENT A LITTLE CRAZY and on one of my jumps (plyo) I came down wrong and it was like a knife in my back. OMG.
You guys- after having this back pain situation for at least 4 months last year, where I thought I was going to have to live with this constant discomfort, where I'd go to put on my workout pants in the morning and have to hold on to the bed because it hurt to lift up my leg that way-- I am EXTRAORDINARILY sensitive to NOT GOING BACK THERE. I am really surprised that whatever I did, well that I did it. I took baby steps in getting back to working out. I did not run for months nor do any plyo- I did a lot of hour long walks and was very limited with lifting even because as Whitney guided me, she told me what moves would put tension on that area -- I was very careful and have progressed. I guess that a&&clown move of mine yesterday taught me a lesson- don't get too cocky.
So yesterday's plans were shelved due to me needing to calm down and just lay on my couch call day watching everything on my DVR from the last 2 months (been traveling!) and using my heating pad for relief. I feel 70% better today and plan to take it easy as well.
Guys and gals- let me tell you how much this BOTHERS me to be sidelined. I am so aware of how much I have been sidelined with the 1) "ankle"/calf situation first for several months, followed by a few months of "back on yaya!" and then 2) the back pain came out of NOWHERE around August last year if I am correct....it got progressively worse and then-- after adding the stuff I mention in my video below-- and after reading this book by John Sarno (see below) my back pain has been 97% gone. I still get a lingering "HEY KELLY I am still here!" shoutout from my lower back but I will not stop all the PREVENTATIVE measures I am taking now for both my calves and my back.
Here is my UNDER 10 MINUTES THANK YOU VERY MUCH babble on a thon about the back and calves issues and what I do to prevent pain so I can stay active.
So, guys and gals, this is just LIFE. I have had moments of feeling sorry for myself and feeling embarrassed but-- I am learning that this LIFE. We all have injuries or things that make it easy for us to stop and give up. I also see how much in the past I've given up or given in too easily-- and I think that wasn't out of me being mindful as much as me -- deep down inside, being so insecure and not sure of myself in reaching my ULTIMATE GOALS-- that when this stuff happened I was unconsciously thinking inside "SEE?? I am never going to get there! No matter how much I try, no matter how hard I work SOMETHING HAPPENS and I am sidelined!"
I refuse to think that way anymore. I'm telling you all it took my all my life to get HERE where I finally see how awful my internal self-talk has been and -- more importantly, that I am stopping it. Sure, I knew of it. But I allowed it to continue because my best friend was my insecurity and you know what, that becomes a comfort blanket. It gives you an excuse to not move forward.
EVERYTHING in my life is changing because I AM CHANGING. I am changing from being a pleaser in EVERYTHING-- in my business, in my professional relationships, my personal relationships -- I am making time for ME and putting me first and learning to say NO a heck of a lot more often. I am changing from someone that used to concern myself with trying to make everyone happy with my decisions into someone that has 100% clarity that I am doing the right thing. I am learning to stop TRYING and now, I just DO IT. I am proud of me and what I have done with building a company from zero with absolutely not a dime and going by my gut-- I realize what we are now and I am BLOWN AWAY. God has rewarded my efforts and rewarded my internal growth and change. I've made a LOT of changes in how I behave-- I have had to toughen up in some areas and soften in others- and those changes, many of which I put off FOR years, THEY ARE CHANGING PEOPLE AROUND ME.
THIS IS THE BIGGEST GAMECHANGER in my attitude right here. Instead of worrying and obsessing about things I thought were brewing or might happen or "what if....??????" etc. I realized that all my life, I have dealt with some HUGE AWFUL HORRIBLE THINGS-- I mean many of you don't know the half of it. Drama is a kind word for years of awful life bumps, but I handled it. I got through it. And when you really understand that you are not in control of a lot of things that you stress and worry and obsess about- when you change your attitude and really accept and believe that WHATEVER HAPPENS EVEN THE CRAZY CRAPPY STUFF is designed for your inevitable good- life becomes less scary. You don't have a brain cluttered with "what if....???". You become calm and ready to face anything. You fear less. You become more fearless.
This is not all just hokey-pokey self-help mumbo-jumbo guys and gals. It WORKS when you really get it and really apply it. I DECIDED to become the woman I am today, the leader I am today, the PERSON I am today. I changed and I keep changing and I don't look back. I DECIDED to believe in me and kick a&&. All day yesterday when my back was screaming knifey pain, I kept walking around saying out loud "God is healing my back as I speak, God is healing my back as I speak". I said that about 7000000X yesterday no joke. I DECIDED that this little sidestep would not stay in my house. And it won't. But if I sat around all day yesterday worrying and feeling sorry for myself and ASSUMING THE WORST that I'd be back to 4 months of back pain-- that would ruin the day, and it shows that I do not trust in me and in my body's ability to heal itself.
Yesterday I made bulletproof coffee for the first time ever. Have you ever tried it? I quite liked it although, one cup like that above would be 15g of fat-- no carbs, no protein. Please note, I look at macros and nutritional information not as "oh that food is bad because it's high in fat" but more in context of my PLAN. My plan daily allows for 55g of fat - so for me -- right now, bulletproof coffee is something I'd make a slightly smaller portion of like 10g or 7g so I can enjoy it and still have good fats in my other meals.
This was breakfast today- today is lo-carb day so I have one piece of Ezekiel toast under 3 Eggland's Best eggs (client of FitFluential but I have been buying only Eggland's Best eggs for years). YUMMMMM. And yesterday for lunch I had this mash up of awesomeness in a bowl- chicken + broccoli + sweet potato + hummus. YUM. I might have that today too.
Allright y'all- I am off to do some more preventative loafing today. I have to fly to NYC for a pretty cool thing I am doing with a client of FitFluential-- all around eating BREAKFAST -- stay tuned for that-- more info and highlights to follow.
What did you do this weekend? What are your favorite lunch mash-ups lately? Salads, meals, wraps, shoot them at me. ;-)