Hey Peeps! What's up today?
Well, here it is, days after my last post. Why is this post titled RUDE AWAKENING? For a specific reason. I feel like Monday and Tuesday of this week specifically were big time Rude Awakenings for me-- but -- like anything in life, a bad thing can always be an opportunity.
Martin- I bet you love this don't you? ;-)
Anything bad that happens, or anything WRONG that you figure out about yourself~~ it's an opportunity. When I have let a customer down with my business, that's an OPPORTUNITY to show them how much we care and WIN them back.
When you find out something bad about yourself, like having a RUDE AWAKENING MOMENT where you SEE your faults or bad habits CRYSTAL CLEAR-- and maybe you've been aware of some or all of them all along, but suddenly it all comes together in one epic A-HA moment-- you might get angry. You might have this colossal moment of frustration in the sense of "Why didn't I figure this out BEFORE?????"
Either way-- you can't change the past. What you have discovered in your RUDE AWAKENING, is your opportunity.
Sometimes you have a rude awakening, as I did on Monday/Tuesday and you might face this:
"I can't do this. I've been trying and trying and saying I want to do this but OBVIOUSLY I CAN'T"
Well that's a bunch of crap.
- I thought I couldn't run. I RUN.
- I thought I could never run my own business. I'M RUNNING IT. I'm OWNING IT.
- I thought I could never have difficult conversations and say negative (true) things and NOT BACK DOWN. I do it EVERY DAY NOW.
- I thought-- after 2 years of perimenopausal madness that I would NEVER LOSE WEIGHT and NEVER HAVE NORMAL SKIN again. I'm losing weight. I'm managing the skin thing with my doctor. So, I'm HOT all the time. I just wear tank tops. All the time. ;-)
- I thought I couldn't do or like yoga. I LOVE IT.
EVERYTHING YOU THINK YOU CAN'T DO-- that's what you should do. Face what you think you can't do. Face what you doubt you can do. Face what you think you JUST PLAIN SUCK AT.
And make yourself EPIC AT IT.
What was my rude awakening?
Well- I have shared with you that Dr. Mike Roussell is now my spirit guide Diet Doctor. ;-) And he has designed a diet PLAN for me based on my specific needs/goals/medical issues etc. It takes into consideration my Paleo preference, allows for a cheat meal a week and is designed for optimal fat loss IN PARTNERSHIP with a solid training program designed VERY SPECIFICALLY by the ever-badass Todd Bumgardner.
I am in awe that I am blessed to work with these guys. IN AWE.
I knew they were outrageously knowledgeable and talented but holy hell when I got my diet plan and workout plan- it was so detailed, so customized and so different than anything I've ever seen, I am like a kid on Christmas. MORE DETAILS ON THAT-- because the official first start date of diet/training together is Monday. No, I'm not cheating and not working out until then- but we got my workout approved today, I got my diet earlier so we are keeping things neat and clean and starting on a Monday.
Here's the rude awakening.
I had Mike's Diet Plan. Monday I had a doctor's appointment at 2pm. I had all the tools in my LIFE needed to eat on plan that day, which is THREE MEALS, pre and post workout nutrition and a snack/shake.
There was EPIC FAILURE in the planning department on my part and I got bitch slapped professionally corrected by Dr. Mike.
Got up that morning, had my breakfast, had my Vitamins, my supplements etc. Then I let myself ROLL WITH THE DAY. I'm getting on a call at 12:30pm that runs into a long GAB A THON and then there I was RUSHING TO THROW ON CLOTHES TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE AT 1:40PM because my appointment was ahead. HADN'T EATEN SINCE BREAKFAST.
I called Dr. Mike. I admitted what I did. I said I had a 4pm-6pm appointment and wouldn't be home until like 7pm. What to do? He was all like HELLLLOOOOO KELLY YOU DUMA** (this is my artistic interpretation of Dr. Mike, btw) HAVE YOU EVER HEARD OF PLANNING?? THAT'S WHAT THIS IS ALL ABOUT PLANNING YOUR DAY IN ADVANCE, NOT THE CONCEPT OF MEALS, BUT WHAT WILL YOU EAT ON MONDAY BEFORE YOUR 2PM, WHAT DO YOU NEED PACKED BEFORE YOU LEAVE AT 2PM SO YOU HAVE YOUR SNACK ETC. ETC. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?
That's Dr. Mike in the video. As you can see -- he is very calm cool and collected, while still a Manly Man. He doesn't yell. I yell. ;-) Anyway, I told Mike--
THIS IS WHAT I'VE DONE FOR 2 YEARS. I've had the best of intentions, the highest hopes and then I ABSOLUTELY ALLOW MY WORK to get in the way. I have made absolutely NOT NEARLY ENOUGH EFFORT to devote enough time to myself in a proactive manner so I can reach my goals.
- I haven't shopped COMPREHENSIVELY so I have all my groceries to make all my meals.
- I haven't made meals in advance.
- I haven't been looking at my schedule and block out time for me and my workouts and social life.
- I have been reactive. Not proactive.
- I have been frazzled not organized.
- I have been frustrated not proud.
Notice how I wrote all of this out and said "I haven't been" instead of I AM or, I DON'T. This is past tense. I felt so stupid talking to Mike, having great goals and letting something as absurd as EATING MY DAMN LUNCH BEFORE I LEFT AND PACKING A PROTEIN SHAKE AND SOME ALMONDS-- RUIN MY DAY.
Mike told me, FIND A CHIPOTLE. ;-) WE heart Chipotle. But because my planning has been so sucktastic til now- I have had Chipotle for dinner THREE TIMES THIS WEEK. They see me coming and probably are like IS THIS GIRL HOMELESS?
Have I talked about this tendency of mine before? Yes. Have I complained about it? Yes. Have I "TRIED" to address it? not really. No more. I answer to these two great dudes and furthermore.......I WANT THIS SO BAD. BALANCE. TIME FOR ME. I DESERVE IT. I DESERVE TO REMEMBER TO EAT MY DANG LUNCH!!!!! That sounds silly right? I'm not helping anyone by being so wiped out all the time.
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Overall-- I found my Rude Awakening to be good. It was a smack in the face. A throwdown that was needed. I want you all to watch me turn it AROUND.
Did you enjoy the telling of the rodents in my house?? Seriously? What's Up with all the animals that are attracted to me.....Hmmm. Telling.
Welcome to my life.
That said, I'm going to cook some Tilapia and do some extra PLANKS AND WALL-SITS for punishment for Monday!! hahahahha cue devilish laughter!!!
**Disclosure: GaiamTV is a client of my company, FitFluential. All opinions and expressions of love are my own.