I've been bad. I've been a slacker. At blogging and at my own workout consistency. There is no one to blame but me and there really aren't excuses.
What has become clear is what's been missing in my life that I used to have in place before I became this workaholic creature that puts everything but me first.
What HAS been in place-- my work schedule. My work hours. My dedication to building a startup and to putting in the TIME. I've been putting in the time.
But what I realize is that in anything QUALITY is better than QUANTITY. If I slave away for 16 hours a day but am so burned out and fried from being hunched over my desk/laptop and my eyes are burning from staring at the screen, I'm NOT DOING QUALITY WORK. So it takes me 7x longer to do what I could do in an hour-- WHEN I'M ALERT AND MOTIVATED AND READY TO WORK.
Sometimes, breaking away is what you need to make you MORE EFFECTIVE.
Welcome to Balance. Or How Much Balance Is Needed, Not Just a Fun Concept.
What's been MISSING? My commitment. I've had all the interest in the world this year but I havent put the things in place, haven't put pen to paper to write out my plan, haven't hired my trainer, haven't DONE THE WORK that in my head is there. My interest is at an all time high kids. My commitment-- gets pushed to the side, BY ME, because I am loyal to my lover - WORK- first.
I need to get some space in my relationships and restore order. ;-) I sound very Oprah.
Work, I need some space from you. I'm not GOOD FOR YOU when I'm fried and so tired that I cannot focus. Breaking away from you will do my mind and body good so that when I DO work, I can kick A**.
Workouts, let's get back together. I've been seeing RUNNING for a while. I like RUNNING. But all RUNNING and no WEIGHTS and NO YOGA makes Kelly feel mushy and sad. I need to be with ALL OF YOU. So we are going to have an open and inclusive relationship. We are dating. SERIOUSLY. I'm giving you my COMMITMENT.
What's been missing?
Consistency. HABITS. A way of life. I had FORGOTTEN WHAT IT FEELS LIKE when you always make the time for what's important. When things are important YOU FIND A WAY TO DO IT. I am so done being burned out, tired, drained and overextended. I'm making time for me. That means instead of just talking about the elusive "I have mornings for my workouts", I now have SPECIFIC WEEKLY OBJECTIVES and a trainer to help me. I shared my goals with Carla who LOVES TO KEEP ME ACCOUNTABLE. I no longer give creedence to this idea that "I don't have 2 hours for myself!!!!" Guess what?? when I give myself two hours, I am 10x more productive the other hours that I do work. I'm happier, I'm balanced.
I'm stopping making such a big deal out of everything-- it's so true. We always UNDERESTIMATE what we eat and OVERESTIMATE how much we worked out. Think about it. You aren't where you wanna be? Look at yourself HARD-- are you REALLY working out as much as you should be?? are you REALLY EATING LESS OR EATING BETTER??
Sometimes we can make our obstacles BIGGER than they are. I've assumed way too many things about getting back to the gym or about taking time for my workouts-- that everything will suffer. It doesn't.
I plan to walk this not just talk this. I hope to lead by example. Are you in?